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The ongoing intensity of the Galactic Wave of Love permeates our beings to the core bringing to the surface that which needs to be released / removed. The vast majority of human beings on this planet are now experiencing ups and downs emotionally, energetically as these Pure Love energies bring to the surface those negative patterns of being that no longer serve us and that we definitely want to be rid of when The Event is on our doorstep. After the Event this process of ascension will speed up and there will be ample guidance available for anyone who actively wishes to move forward quickly on the ascension path. So right now anything that can be perceived as being a negative emotional reaction arising in a situation of communication with a friend, colleague, loved one etc. is surfacing now so that it can finally be dealt with and released.
I now intend to share with you dear reader one of my most difficult negative emotional reaction patterns that has stolen enormous amounts of energy from me for as long as I can remember. I am doing this in the hopes that you too might recognize some aspect of this emotional trauma that might be controlling your life or the life of a loved one in some way and hopefully support you in your process of releasing it. I have been told that this pattern of behavior has controlled my life for three incarnations.
Aged 4 this life I began in earnest to try to ease emotionally difficult family situations by actively supporting the parent who ‘ruled the roost’ through continual releasing of childlike emotional reactions. As there was no one to confide in and my fear of this parent increased the 4-year-old Therese made a decision that the only way to actively affect the situation in the home was by ‘feeding’ the emotional needs of this parent by helping out in the home in anyway possible in the belief that it would bring more harmony for everyone. As an adult I continued to surround myself with close friends that had similar patterns of behavior. In the end I have been forced to break several relationships with people who continually drained (who I allowed) me and my energy completely. The energetic support that I attempted to give to them was never returned just like my childhood situation. In fact, I will go so far as to say that the more that I gave, the more they expected and I know that IF I had allowed these situations to continue I would simply not have been alive today. The choice in the end to break away was a choice based on life or death.
About 5 years ago I believed that this lesson was thoroughly learned and dealt with and that I was free from this pattern of behavior. It’s easy to believe that one is ‘ready’ when one spends a lot of one’s time alone without close or demanding relationship situations. I was convinced that through therapeutic work and clear decisiveness not to allow this to recur, i.e. no-one would be allowed to lure me into supporting them physically / emotionally /energetically in some way because of strongly expressed emotional frustrations or things like ‘guilt throwing’. However, I have recently found myself back in this same drained exhausted state again because someone I love has strong emotional expressions of frustration about their overloaded life situation.
It would seem that I had not left that old pattern of being at all!! I can now clearly see how my recent exhaustion is due to ‘carrying’ this friends worries and overextending myself to help ‘solve’ their problems like I have always attempted to do!
Enough already! I have had it! This will end NOW. I should give thanks now for this person’s presence in my life. I know that this person has no wish to burden me with his/her life situation. If I did not have this person in my life now I would not have finally seen that this energetic drainage that I am continually exposing myself to is ‘my’ pattern that I need to relieve myself of now once and for all time.
Here is a tool that I now intend to use actively with the intention of changing this pattern forever. It was given to me this morning and now less than 6 hours later I am sharing it with you in the hopes that many of you will find it useful for yourself or someone else. This will definitely help in any situation where we need to balance the energetic give and take of life. A suggestion if you feel that this might help you would be to declare this affirmation up to three times daily for about three days and ask the support of your spiritual guides in affecting this change.
ALL ENERGY THAT I AM HOLDING WITHIN ME THAT IS NOT BELONG TO ME I NOW SEND IN RETURN IN ITS ORIGINAL FORM.
ALL ENERGY THAT BELONGS TO ME BUT THAT IS NOT WITH ME I NOW TAKE BACK IN ITS PUREST FORM.
Old patterns of energy that control us die hard and often we need the support of another to see the emotional negative approach to life that we are unaware of. Realize that right now you will be surrounded by the very people and relationships that that can serve your healing process. You will have to be willing to see how you yourself might allow or choose to accept a so called ‘negative’ situation that repeats itself. If we are willing to do the work to release negativity, then we can be thankful to and bless everyone around us who is helping us to grow and become those true sovereign beings that we all wish to be. Things can rapidly change for the better when we are finally awake enough to want to see which pattern of behavior that might be controlling our lives and our energy.
Surrendering to The Goddess / Divine Mother
This article would not be complete if I did not mention how we can surrender everything – all of our concerns – worries etc. about whatever they may be to the Divine Mother. Divine Mother can also be referred to as the Holy Spirit pervading the entire creation. So of course when we realise how we have been draining our energies by holding onto unnecessary worries that we cannot affect right now then we can then decide to declare and decree and command that we now wish to leave these concerns in the Loving Hands of Mother. She will always find the perfect way and the perfect time to deal with the situation that we release hold of.
These end days are intensive and will continue to be intensive for everyone on this planet in some way until Compression Breakthrough. The ones (cabal) who will refuse until the last moment to surrender will continue with their madness. Meanwhile the Light development is bringing everything to the surface both on an individual and collective level. The rate of the awakening process of mankind is now speeding up as more and more truth surfaces. This process will not stop or slow down but only increase with each hour that passes by. Is it not so that the quicker we as individuals agree to release any old controlling emotional patterns and surrender to trusting in / receiving support from Spirit that we can indeed be carried by the Galactic Wave of Love? We can be carried to / through and beyond The Event if we just learn to ‘let go and let God’.
Therese Zumi
Written 13th August 2016 – First posted on PFC 14th August 2016
14th August 2016 at 1120 AM CEST
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Therese, what you share here has blown me away! Perfect personal timing and true synchronicity! “… when we realise how we have been draining our energies by holding onto unnecessary worries that we cannot affect right now then we can then decide to declare and decree and command that we now wish to leave these concerns in the Loving Hands of Mother. She will always find the perfect way and the perfect time to deal with the situation that we release hold of.” I loved this immensely. Thank you, again, as always, in love and light.
Thank you for your honesty and openness to share your life story, Therese. I always feel this ardour, with which you express yourself here, is so valuable and helpful in understanding each other, in the virtual world- communication. I think I share the same core issue with you, Therese, as far as I’ve understood your story.
I chose the role of service to my mother, who birthed 9 children, at the age of 8, creating a false sense of identity for myself, never feeling really complete, never acknowledged for what I did, at least not openly.
I longed for it, desperately, of course. I always worked to lift the dark cloud of the Calvinistic church strictness that hung over our home. My father was a minister and my mother kept up appearances in a harness of holy shine, for the eyes of the outside world. Our front door was often smudged with tomatoes and eggs, by the radicals in our neighbourhood, on late Saturday nights. Nowadays I imagine us as the Adam’s family of the 50’s. Wicked, behind our mask.
I created my own “antidote” to the overload of holy shine, by running out of church to the village cinema, after Sunday service, looking at horror scenes and nudity, exposed in the black and white pictures. Or jumping in the ditch, with other kids from church, looking for amphibic creatures. Our black lackered shoes and bright white socks neatly left on the bank, clean and without any show of our sins, when we came home later.
My mother told us of streets nearby, where she didn’t want us to play. You can imagine how we used her remarks as recommendations. I learned to be with strange people and saw poverty combined with great kindness and laughter in the home. I watched the angry young men, in the early 60’s, working at their cars or
Puch bikes, trying to impress them with my girly flirty ways in a shy way. I was often on my roller skates, performing at the busstation on a round little square, in front of the buspassenger’s eyes. Oh, how I wanted to be admired, to be a star!
My rebellious and lively nature found ways to express itself, therefore I lived as if the devil was on my tail, full of bravery, but using my intuition a great deal too, in order to be safe. I felt very insecure inside and always a stranger, or Mother Superior, or Snow queen. I was so very strong! All these roles were my masks.
When my aunts and uncles visited us, they greeted me with “Oh, isn’t she sweet, she’s such a sunny in the house”. Upon that I instinctively froze for being touched in that place where emotions were buried so deeply, so out of touch for myself to be understood, at that young age.
That place is touched deeply, when I was 59, in the year 2010. On my birthday Jan. 1st. I spoke these words: “From now on I’m coming out of the closet, showing all of my faces and all of my masks”. I was impressed by what came out of my mouth and felt it coming from a very deep place. Little did I know how this “prophecy” would work out in real life, later that year. The timing was right and I had to keep a promise I made, to clean a few of my past existences on planet Earth. Hence my plan for a return, taking form in a human woman body.
How nervous I was! All these realisations came much later, when I found access to the world beyond the veil, more consciously. It was an awakening on many levels, I became visible for myself and a gap inside was no longer there. Though I believe such old patterns always will be triggered, Therese. This might well be your experience of late, thinking you’d grown past it. I myself have traveled far back to the origin of this pattern.
With time, I found my proper grounding again and a deep re-connecting to my beloved mother who loves me unconditionally. Her name is lady Gaia, though she’s known by many other names.
The process was like going through all my life-stories diaries fast forward, page by page, breathless. At times I felt like a sword burnished on the anvil of an invisible blacksmith. I loved it, it was purgatory in full acceptance, for I found so much regeneration and rejuvenation. I began to welcome truth as a friend and learned to value emotions that are painful, as valuable wayshowers. I danced for half a year, every night, in my own home and lost 15 kg. I had to feel my heartbeat in exhaustion and the vibrancy in my muscles all over.
A harness fell off me and my outer appearance changed hugely, body and face. How it surprised others!
To accept painful feelings was a giant eye opener, for this was not done in the family I grew up with. We never discussed the “working tools” that you need to create a life and how to manage feelings, nor did we receive tools for discernment, to cope with conditions in life and overcome difficulties. Finding support by others.
I know much about transformation, apparently. Many synchronicities began to happen, after the year 2011 and I trusted my steps on a path that was truly mine. I left Holland for 5 months, working in off grid communities. Threw myself out of all comfort chairs. I’ve found the truth of moving through dark corners of my personal heart, finding access to the greater heart, which is the place where humanity may know of inter-relationship, of unity in diversity of expression. The place where we can create our own Heaven on our own Earth.
As I perceive it, that portal is open always but widening far more, becoming more obvious. It’s true for those who can open up to the eternal melody that is resounding through that portal. It requires our surrender to the truth of who we are including our imperfections, quirks and vulnerabilities. Welcoming our feelings like our own offspring, like our kids showing mirrors to us. To me, autonomy is a vast landscape without a fixed horizon. Choice and motion are great companions, as I perceive it, in all of the changes and adventures we’re experiencing now. I’m sure we’re all going to make it through this night, shining our inner light always. There’s nothing to fear, really. As I perceive it, these are the dark hours before dawn that we’re moving through.
Don’t despair, you’re not alone and you’re loved beyond measure.
So recognizable, thank you so much for sharing.
I was in the same position. God Bless you Honey and thank you for sharing your experiance and knowledge.
With Love
Sophia
Very well said, I have had a similar experience, thanks for sharing you’re insight.
Thank you very much for sharing, Therese!
You’re not alone with this situation. A lot of us went through this. It’s very hard to try to assist when you know that it’s a one-way street without meeting us half way.
Btw .. I have one of them in my family … and she’s coming with my siblings to visit us in Sept … ‘controlling’ energy .. But then she already knew that I don’t ‘engage’ with that kind of ‘controlling’ energy … so ..this visit is going to be truly ‘exciting’.
What I’ll be giving them during their visit …. is strictly unconditional and am not expecting anything back .. and I don’t engage in drama either … so .. this is going to be their ‘awakening’ trip and also for me to state the reality of who I am – …. with my siblings.
Our Divine Mother will help us go through this .. Sending bright Reiki Blessings to All As One. Namaste
Wow..its like I read myself..I having the same experience. I am in an healing perioden now and I am more closer to my spiritual guide than ever!
Thank You ❤️